lydiatalise's Blog

All I wanted was the chance to be with her without limits. A chance to spend time with her one on one in person without distance holding us back in a way that it could not be contained. And though the plans have been set and she travels this Sunday to get to me and I'm picking her up, we're being torn away and I am so worried about her...

She's going to be two-three hours away from me. Traveling back and forth is going to be expensive so seeing each other more than for a few days every other couple weeks is impossible for both of us. Living, for her, will be hectic because the hotels are too expensive and she also has to provide her own food. Working for minimum wage and attempting to live in a hotel that'll take more than half of her paycheck every week is going to screw her over...

I want to know that she's going to be okay. I want to know that she'll have a roof over her head and food and safety. I want to know that we won't be torn away by force because the stupid travel program refuses to help us in transferring her to a store closer to my home...

Last year on my birthday I made the wish to have her here with me. Last year I wished that we could have time together and really feel the essence of our emotions for each other physically but now...Now it's finally happening and it's problem after problem. She needs to transfer in order to live healthily for two months...

I'm worried and scared and I just wish we could have more time together, care free and without the need to stress about this stupid program...